Wednesday, January 7, 2009

A little about me..

Me last Christmas.. This is the closest I will get to an actual photo of my whole body..

Here I am 31 years old and I weigh 289lbs.... I have been overweight my whole life! I feel shitty and I look shitty. I am so sick and tired of being like this.. I lay in the bed for most of the day just because I don't want to face the world. I have suffered from an eating disorder for almost half my life. What kind of life is this? I have tried every freaking diet I can think of and I have failed at all of them.. Now it's time for me.. It's time for me to take charge of MY LIFE and stop all this crap. I AM IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE.. I CAN DO THIS! I WILL DO THIS! I HAVE TO DO THIS! I NEED TO DO THIS! I am joining a gym on Friday. I am have so many feelings going on about this.. I am scared to death but I am super excited all at the same time. I really owe a lot of this new found attitude to Ruby from the Style Network.. WOW what can I say.. She is an amazing woman who happens to be obese. At the start of her show she weight probably around 500lbs it is so inspirational to see her struggle like I do but some how she keeps on going.. She doesn't give up when she really wants too.. She also has an amazing support system and we are a lot alike in that way.. I have an amazing bunch of family and friends who are all behind me through this..


  1. Kristie! You go! I'm so proud of you for putting it out there. In classic Lori fashion I told a manager he couldn't relate to weight issues during a conversation we were having. Naturally, he could. UGH! He told me that he had lost a ton of weight. How he did it? He started exercising. That's all. He didn't try to eat well. He just got in the habit of working out 6 times a week. One day, he was about to eat a piece of cheesecake and he thought about all the hard work he'd been doing and how long it would take him to work off the one piece of cheesecake. He put the fork down and starting changing his eating after that. It was a natural progression. One thing at a time. On manageable thing at a time. YOU CAN DO THIS!

  2. I offer you my support, my unwavering love. I do not know what I can do, how I can help, what supporting looks like. I want you to be happy, for you to see in the mirror what I see when I look at you, an amazing lady who has lived through some rough shit, yet turned it all into love. I want you to be healthy so we can continue our adventures for many, many years. You have hidden your pain from me, I know, thank you for holding it up for everyone to see (and learn from), I hope the sunshine melts it like yesterday's snow.

  3. aww Dawny Lou!! I love you so much!! Thank you for all your support it helps so much knowing I have you thinking about me.. My love forever and always!